Quiet is Violent

I feel my pupils dilating the moment I die and my soul escapes. I have left another body again. I keep on sending desolated bodies down. None of them were strong enough to me. So many have perished with fear in their eyes. I've seen it countless times. But if only they knew their purpose. Though none of them have sufficed me for too long, they all helped me somehow. They showed me what an imperfect, weak, flawed body is like. They should've expired with a smile on their faces. But it was not always like that. I was not born to steal bodies. Something has happened and I was forced to make sacrifices. I took bodies for cleansing. I dwelled on them for as long as they could bear, and when they were broken and weak and empty they were sent down, but not before I took over another one. But it was not like that in the beginning. In the beginning I was in the void. The lid was open and I could go anywhere, in this universe or another. I could be anything, I was free. I became everyth...

Chon opens his eyes before the alarm clock goes of. It is warm and comfortable in the bed, and part of him wants him to tuck himself under the blankets more, to sleep on just a few more minutes. But he knows he can't do that. He gets up and stretches, checking the time: 2:45 am. He's up fifteen minutes earlier, like always. He considers not putting the alarm clock on anymore, for he never needs it to wake up. But it's better to leave it there, just in case. His slippers are on the side of the bed. He puts them on and goes to the bathroom. The lights are kept off, he lets the water flows a bit to warm up, and then washes his face and brushes his teeth. Then he opens the wardrobe in the bedroom. It is not hard to choose an outfit - his clothes are all the same. He picks the gray plain t shirt, black jeans, equally black sneakers and a red cap with the initials M. D. A. written on it. Once he's dressed, it is time for breakfast. The kitchen is small but pr...

I hear the cry Of the black birds in the distance Today it is going to rain Today sad drops will fall Over sad people with broken hearts The clouds are getting darker And thunders are louder The heartless wind blows The sky cries as everybody runs Trying to find a shelter from such odd weather Today it is going to be cold And the noise will be replaced With sweet silence of relief They will notice their eyes Shining brighter than before They will see the bodies collapsing Lying lifeless on the floor As they have already done before The sky's getting darker It is time to go I will gaze back at the clouds And let the torment take me Today an angel is going to die again

She was a fallen angel Corrupted by sin Trapped in the human condition A broken soul with a beating heart “She will never heal” I don’t believe them I refuse to drown in the grace of ignorance. I am covered with scars But I won’t be fooled like them Forever with the voices in my head Telling me it’s the right thing to do. Black tears of despair Dripping from my face And staining my once pure and white skin But I don’t believe them I know I’m still fine and She is the one She is damaged but I will try to fix her Holding her in my arms Feeling the heartbeat so close to my empty chest. Maybe this will help me as well. Maybe her passionate red eyes Will melt the coldness of mine. And then she could help me Learn how to breathe again Learn how to live again If I get to save her, I might find a way to save myself.

1. In one sentence, who are you? 2. In one word, what do you live for? 3. What is worth the pain? 4. What will you never give up on? 5. What do you always try to avoid? 6. What do you take for granted every day? 7. What do you need most right now? 8. What’s the best advice you have ever given to yourself? 9. Happiness is_________? 10. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you? 11. What kind of people does the world need more of? 12. What does beautiful look like in the dark? 13. What is the most beautiful thing you’ve seen today? 14. What’s one problem you’re thankful you don’t have? 15. What’s something nobody could ever steal from you? 16. Who would you like to forgive right now? 17. What is the most valuable life lesson you learned from a mistake? 18. Happiness is not__________? 19. Who are you grateful for? 20. What’s something simple that makes you smile 21. What gives you hope? 22. What do you want to remember forev...

Pretty little girl, why are you so sad? Please come closer, tell me where does it hurts so bad You are wearing this smile But your eyes show you are in pain Just come over, listen me for a little while I will make you feel right again Will you let me play with your delicate hair? What they have done to you isn’t fair Let me wipe away the tears running down your face And comfort you with a warm and gentle embrace They don’t understand you, I know it and I can tell The same thing has happened to me as well That endless struggle we have to face every day But if we fight together, we can make it all go away I will be there, ‘cause eventually you will fall But you will recover the strength and will tear down that wall I will support, help and love you – I am your friend At your best, at your worst – there by your side I will stand Take my hand, you won’t have to walk alone anymore The scars you have only make me love you more We will face, we will fight, we will overcome...

I know I am lost The silence falls upon me Like a heavy blanket But I am not scared I start to find this silence Comforting I am not ok I am lost But it is alright My heart sinks into my chest I am not ok anymore Though this is not the end This can't be the end Lay me down to rest In this bed I made for myself I cannot leave this bed May I stay here forever? I've made promises I was unable to keep Broken promises that stare at me I am a coward and I don't want to leave my bed My heart sinks My mind is gone I don't wanna leave my bed I am not ok anymore.

I walk these streets alone Wondering why the fireworks Are so distant yet so loud The sound hurts my ears I feel they bleeding as time passes Wishing the rain would fall again How I wished I would not care anymore It would make it easy To say goodbye and disappear Gone forever Fading into the night Like sulfur and charcoal Once bright, exploding in the sky Now gray dust Useless Worthless Gone into the vastness Of the sky The words bleed quietly Flowing, flowing And I wished it were my blood Flowing, flowing I walk these streets alone Enjoying  the dazzling magic of fireworks Wishing I was like them Wishing it were easy to disappear.

I've been stuck on this place For two long weeks Unable to face the moon There is so much darkness here I write every hour that passes on the walls Staining the bricks with blood From my fingertips Soon this will be over I will not stay in this cage forever When the rain comes again My anger will be released A storm is coming Forget the illusion of safety None is safe There is no escape You’d better run for your life While you can But there is no escape Suffering is your reality And we're all going to die.

These voices Like knives on my head I am bounded to this pain With anchors Torn apart Every sharp-razor piece Bleeds I let myself get broken Because I am tired I gave up And soon you will too Once you enter the game You've already lost It's over Running in circles through fire There is no escape Let it go There is so much pain Let it go You will be proved wrong Start to beg Bury yourself Shameful hopeless Scream ‘till your lungs explode Do you really think you will make it out alive? I don't think so.

Oh, freezing moon Mesmerizing is its Power Glowing bright among the dark And when its energy melts Stars are born. Freezing moon So beautiful, Yet so lonely May this supreme force Blind the weak ones! May you not get caught With hunger May the urge for forever Not enslave you For the goddess above us Keep the brighter stars For the selfish ones.

He can’t be destroyed He isn’t real But he still holds My sleep Every sunrise I wake up among the trees Silence and gray haze surrounding me Golden leaves falling They can hear my cries Flashes of what I’ve been Come burning and crashing Echoing through my head Crimson fading images I can’t close my eyes I will drown in darkness again Lord of Dreams, please leave me alone I will never find peace With you by my side I will not have relief Lord of Thousand Dreams I don’t wanna sleep forever Into sadness and darkness every night Please just let me free I don’t wanna sleep forever.

This life This "golden future" Is nothing but ignorance I don't have a master You are not my leader I am not following you! I am starting a new foundation Out of this prison I am free There's nothing you will carry away You corrupted liar Their eyes shall be open I am cutting off the iron mask Revolution will begin! This monster will rise Under black flags marching, Heading to amazing glory Your power is fading away Listen to the screams of rebels No torment anymore Never regret We will tear it all apart We will take over it tonight We are not following you! Awaken the forsaken Revolution begins.

I used to be That beautiful shining light A big star In the dark of the night But now this fire is eating me up The stars... They are disappearing Refusing to glow for a tormented soul Oh powerful White Light Help me Take away this thought of pain Erase the dreams off my head I am trapped Once more I lost the will to change With broken wings I can't even try Help me clean this mess Fix my wings Light my eyes up Come save me before I burn Can you pick up the pieces That are still falling apart? Away from heaven I am nothing but A broken angel with weak wings and red eyes.

Darkness By your merciful shadow I bend on my knees Surrender and agree To be consumed by the flames I can't stand guilty Let me walk Please guide me To the powerfully blinding fire And I agree to burn in flames For all the sins I've made I agree to burn in flames For all the smiles I've faked I agree to burn in flames. Won't waste another night - No more thoughts! Walk with me up to the shore Until I touch the burning water This feeling is overwhelming Please allow me - Let me go I will sail away on the dead silent waters The waves will crash upon my heart And the tides will take me away Here I meet my fate Here I pay for my sins I agree to burn in flames.

I'd do anything To not feel this pain anymore My thoughts are so loud I can barely hear my mouth Feelings are overflowing Bury them for me! I can't define who I am anymore I need some help... Escape from this hell From this pit of misery and pain I know you've been suffering For a long time But this is not the end I can save you I am no evil Change blood for mud Be mine, and you will be fine Blood, blood, blood That's all I ask for I can provide you relief Shadows are security Isn't that what you asked for? I can save your life I will set you free Be mine Just say yes And you will be mine.

From the deepest of my mind Buried in dirty on my unconsciousness Once hidden, is coming back. Those memories, the bad dreams Crossing my eyes in flashing burning lights Rising, rising, Crimson-blood and sharp Growing stronger and cutting the edges. I thought they were gone I thought they were chained Caged on the bottom of my soul Lying sleepy and harmless in my core. But oh God, they are coming I feel the pressure once again My body will collapse, my brain will explode I don't want it to take over me again But it's a monster and I am fighting alone Screaming for help, I am powerless They only see what they want to see By the time they realize what was wrong It will be too late.

"Take another breath, it's all over Why can't you just accept It's all in your head?" It's all in my head... So can you please come over And open up this head Tear apart my brain And paint the walls in red In order to make these thoughts go away? 'Cause they won't leave me They won't leave me and I am being carried away On the outside I laugh But inside I am screaming The wounds might be healing But dear, I am still bleeding! Regrets come to haunt me at night Waves of desolation crashing around me Swallowing me, tides taking me away How long can I last? How many days still left? If I don't make it out alive If I don't make it through the night Maybe you will realize I was not ok And maybe you will remember I told you I was sick.

Hey, little child I just wanted to say That I am leaving tonight So good-bye! There is nothing you can do To make me breathe the way I did It’s all over and I am leaving tonight I smile, this is farewell Singing a soft song That soon you will sing too I am sorry for the storm All I wanted was a little rain To wash away the memories To take me away I fear no more Because I don’t belong in here, And I am leaving Born to fly high To run free I was born to fly high, To beat the speed of sound If I keep on flying faster And higher and higher I might be able to disappear Higher and higher Reaching the deep dark sky.

You accept the storm Even though it destroys What you have created You accept the seasons Even though you hate summer And winter is freezing You accept the blaze You watch as it licks and devours everything You accept the night With its darkness, monsters and fears You accept the ocean With its mystery and dark-blue deepness You accept to lay down and sleep Even though you wake up and realize your dreams are gone and reality smacks you in the face So why, in the name of God, Can't you accept my sadness, coldness and scary-deep thoughts? Why can't you love my messy soul and loneliness The same way you love and admire Other ways of disasters and destruction?