Quiet is Violent

Shattered glass Surrounding me Please go away Or I will let you down I will hurt you. I am ill and my head Is full of broken thoughts That I cannot repair. You have become Someone different Would you like to have My whole empire of dust? Focusing on the pain, I am unable To hear you. So, do like everybody else: Go away They always do in the end. Beneath these tired eyes The feelings are fading away You are not what you Used to be. I am not Myself lately Will you go away in the end? Will you let me down? Go away Let me down Hurt me Before I hurt you.

I've searched and fought For more years than I can tell I've helped and healed I've cured, I've fixed With my wings I protected With my tears I offered relief I might have seemed cold It was the way I had found To take and bear their pain Without breaking myself to pieces... The sun doesn't heal anymore Its crimson color hurts It's hurting the cool of my eyes Yet I've made it out alive I've been strong Standing tall against the disasters I took all their pain, swallowed everything up I nearly destroyed myself All these fights have drained my strength Now I am sick and tired This feeling is spreading like a cancer I am not useful anymore The blood coming out of my wounds won't stop flowing Like a stream of helpless desperation But they still wanted to make me look fine In one last attempt to remember, They put a smile on my face But I know they won't recall all that was said and done I shall fall into an empt...

I’m breathing out I’m bleeding out I’d rather tear myself apart Than bring you down When the skies turn grey And the screams are louder I found out my heart is barely breathing And I am still bleeding Falling apart Cracking and shaking You look, but I guess you can’t see Telling me to keep going Do you think it's easy to stay strong? I hold it all tightly, bury all my sins Close my eyes, swallow the pain And I breathe in And I bleed out For you. Because the last thing I’d do Is to let you down So I break and fall in the silence And pick up the pieces that fell apart And I stay strong I take it all and put it back together I mend the pieces. Even with walls turning to dust And clocks going backwards I breathe and bleed I bleed you for you But I wonder Would you bleed for me?

Every single drop of rain Falling from the Sky Seems like a tear The clouds are getting darker, rising and rising Bluer and bluer With crimson eyes and voiceless words I beg “Let it go, just let it go of me” As all the sanity has left my mind My sorrow is wrapped around me with a burning chain Like an anchor I begin to drown I feel the end - coming for me As songs turn to noisy whispers And happy days fade away from the memory Redemption, your embrace never looked so easeful Your arms tightly around me, wipe away the pain The weight of the world Is not on my shoulders anymore Enclosed by oblivion, everything is evanescent I am lifted and it feels right Carried away by the blowing cold wind Disappearing into the clouds I fade away. - Sadness in Three Acts

Heaven forgive me for my sins For all the hidden truths For all the lies I have told For the desperate songs I sang With the broken strings of my weak heart I am a sad storyteller Sharing secrets with the moon and stars The humans don’t like my stories anymore Because they are so painful and sad and always end the same But all the secrets and revelations and stories Came from my disturbed nights I believe there’s something alive in my dreams Weaving sad words that make me terrified. There is something alive in my dreams It holds my name and owns my mind My dreams have been worrying me Scares me the idea of closing my eyes Am I the only one that hears the bloody voices? What’s there in my head? It stares, and is trying to take over me I am scared What’s in my head? - Sadness in three acts

I hear sirens – screaming in the distance I watch as the waves break against my fortress I feel them slowing falling apart, crumbling I’ve got scars all over my body A real proof I’ve fought with all my strength I have stood tall And it has proved not to be enough Without an anchor to hold me forth I begin to sink White foam surrounding me Shaken and shattered But it seems right The ocean calls my name Claiming me as its belongs These wings were meant to burn This heart was meant to beat – underwater The ocean calls my name And for a second, I don’t feel lost anymore Buried on dirt, rooting among the tress After years of emptiness I now realize It was never my home But into the deep blue and endless ocean I feel welcome Where I will cry no more Where they will hurt me no more I shall not swim I will just sink Slowly and peacefully Let me sink. - Sadness in three acts

The devil on my shoulder Says he is proud of me For all the punishments I’ve taken For all the poisons I’ve drunk For making my soul believe I am miserable. Well, what should I do? There is an enemy inside me There is a monster in my head And all they do is call me “insane” I wish I could see through All the darkness that is surrounding me And the fog that won’t leave my eyes But I am not like you Can’t you see? I am fighting a battle with an army of dust Which is going to be all that will remain in the end So, just let me disappear in the shadows Carried away in the cold of the abandon I shall go For you can’t hold on me anymore It is tough now, but soon will be over And silence will be comforting And then maybe you will see I am not like you.